It must be especially hard when your promiscuous behavior, caused by low self-esteem, is discovered and reviled by everyone. Perhaps you are struggling with whether this pain stems from your own behavior or from outside accusations?
Think back to the moment you chose to be promiscuous, you should have been able to envision the scorn you would face from everyone if you were found out. At that time, were you mentally prepared to endure that?
From a social and moral point of view, promiscuous behavior is indeed difficult to be accepted by most people, and many people will express their resentment and contempt for it.
You'd rather risk disapproval and scorn by choosing to be promiscuous, perhaps you think it brings some temporary comfort and security for low self-esteem, don't you?
It may be time to focus on the root cause of low self-esteem. Go ahead and reflect on what is causing your low self-esteem? Do you wish to change? Is it possible to stop being promiscuous and find true fulfillment and security in other ways by boosting your self-esteem?
Your description is rather simplistic, and I'm not sure of the exact cause of low self-esteem. But self-esteem is something that needs to be constructed and improved on your own initiative, and you have every opportunity to change things.
Promiscuous behavior may satisfy some of your emotional and self-esteem needs in the short term, but it is both socially unacceptable and damaging to yourself.
The satisfaction it brings doesn't last, and you can get stuck in a cycle of continually getting fleeting comfort through promiscuity.
The hard feelings and pain you feel when you are reviled is one of the consequences of promiscuous behavior.
I can't make this pain go away right away because it has actually happened.
You can only accept it, remember this painful experience, gather the courage to stop promiscuity, find a way to change your low self-esteem, find yourself again, learn self-love, and win the true acceptance and affection of others.
I hope that this experience of being reviled and agonized is only a one-time occurrence and will not be repeated in the future.
Only you have the power to change this, so love yourself for the sake of less pain in the future.
Good luck.
