Over the years, my emotions have gradually become like a pool of stagnant water. I used to laugh or cry at the smallest things, but then I always felt like I wasn't good enough, and now I'm even more resigned to the fact that - that's just the way I am, what can I do? This process has been going on for a whole decade, and I haven't experienced the feeling of tears in a long time.
I used to panic when the phone rang, and I had to adjust my mind half a day before I dared to call back; now I still get scared when I hear it ringing, but I simply don't answer it, and forget about it afterward.
I hardly reach out to anyone.
Communicate with your family only what is necessary as well.
I haven't worked in a month and a half.
The bed became the safest haven I've ever felt.
Every now and then there's a crushing feeling, like something is blocking my throat.
I can't bring myself to be interested in living, but I wouldn't choose to end my life either.
Owner, a warm hug to you!
Owner, you say that emotions seem to be lost. The fact that you realize this is a major step forward.
You must be wondering why emotions disappear.
First, one may have experienced a major trauma and lost oneself in the hurt. This situation requires bravery to face the trauma and learn to accept your imperfect self.
Secondly, it could also be being surrounded by feelings of inferiority, blaming yourself for everything, and eventually giving up even on yourself, and the emotions naturally slipping away.
We find that in either case, the core problem is losing yourself.
So try to accept yourself, whether it's you who is hurt or you won't be happy. Everyone is unique and deserves to be loved. As you find yourself again, your emotions will slowly return.
The world and I love you- ̗̀(๑ᵔ⌔ᵔ๑)
